双鱼的劣根性: 从小就幻想以后会出现王子, 然后一见钟情,然后就成了幸福的公主。
可是我忘了, 我从来都不是特别的人, 不会有所谓的一见钟情发生。更不用说什么王子与公主。
我也忽略了, 不是公主, 怎么遇到王子?
我就是个路人, 最普通的,没什么特别
圈子不同, 活着的世界也不一样。就好像, 我们只能看着明星,却无法了解。
我的世界很小,你的一切都在发光
我觉得, 有一个直觉告诉我, 我会一直一个人。
我怕跟人相处, 这是我最大的问题。这种阴影不知道要缠到多久。。
一个人的这种小生活很自在却也很孤单,
累了饿了病了只可以自己来
我不喜欢可是我必须坚强
很矛盾。 不想一个人却又怕面对相处的不安全感。
这情绪应该还会反常几天。
我想昨晚的事情真的影响到了我。
原来, 我也不小了
晚安
Sunday, 19 July 2015
Saturday, 18 July 2015
18/7/2015 What a day
Is raya festive now. But there were still lots of patients when i reached my pharmacy emergency department. Shocked! Why they didnt celebrate their day? they must be very speechless for having themselves sick this moment.
Anyway it was a good start as my pretty pharmacist gave me her nasi bungkus she unable to have it due to busyness.. Appreciate!
But this happiness didnt last long as finally 该来的都会来。I have to go to the main pharmacy to get some medicines alone and explore all that things in darkness.. all my organs especially my hearing got so sensitive that moment.. the only thing i can do was to comfort myself to not think too much... >.<
Do u know whats the feeling when u r alone in a room and the TDM machine beep so loud?! Horrible! Helpless! and God no one answer my call and msg.. =(
Luckily there were getting less patients as i ran the procedure and my pharmacist also understood my situation. Jz that the whole night we didnt chat much, which i found it quite 冷场。 hah! may be she is just too cool~ nvr mind, she is still nice to me~ haha
but my mood was being affected as i received msg from someone. i admitted that i was being rude to that person, and i realised what i was done on this person, but that i cant control my angry that moment. If i was given another choice back to that time, i think i will still do the same thing again. Yes i feel sorry for releasing my angry only on this fellow, but....... sorry i cant control myself. i wont tell my frens abt this, but for sure your msg will always in my mind n heart. 'look at the holes u have made in the fence, they will never be the same again.' I believe my rudeness also ran deep into your mind. ur msg, will nvr be erased.
As i woke up after slept for 8 hrs, in very blurred mind, i got msg from my favourite pretty pretty pharmacist asking me to go out! 重点来咯~ she wana intro her bro............................
so i was like.......................
and the whole session i was like............................
k fine, my heart still beating fast till now.
still i was like............ what happen jz now?
no comment for the above date. cz i dun dare to look at him~~~~ wahahahhahaha!!!
Funniest thing i found in myself. 原来 im so much shy than i thought, and im so much 会装镇定 than i expected... fine la. Im a little bit dislike this kind of me. >.<
Late d. Good night. later 7.30am work again. huh~~~ T_T
Anyway it was a good start as my pretty pharmacist gave me her nasi bungkus she unable to have it due to busyness.. Appreciate!
But this happiness didnt last long as finally 该来的都会来。I have to go to the main pharmacy to get some medicines alone and explore all that things in darkness.. all my organs especially my hearing got so sensitive that moment.. the only thing i can do was to comfort myself to not think too much... >.<
Do u know whats the feeling when u r alone in a room and the TDM machine beep so loud?! Horrible! Helpless! and God no one answer my call and msg.. =(
Luckily there were getting less patients as i ran the procedure and my pharmacist also understood my situation. Jz that the whole night we didnt chat much, which i found it quite 冷场。 hah! may be she is just too cool~ nvr mind, she is still nice to me~ haha
but my mood was being affected as i received msg from someone. i admitted that i was being rude to that person, and i realised what i was done on this person, but that i cant control my angry that moment. If i was given another choice back to that time, i think i will still do the same thing again. Yes i feel sorry for releasing my angry only on this fellow, but....... sorry i cant control myself. i wont tell my frens abt this, but for sure your msg will always in my mind n heart. 'look at the holes u have made in the fence, they will never be the same again.' I believe my rudeness also ran deep into your mind. ur msg, will nvr be erased.
As i woke up after slept for 8 hrs, in very blurred mind, i got msg from my favourite pretty pretty pharmacist asking me to go out! 重点来咯~ she wana intro her bro............................
so i was like.......................
and the whole session i was like............................
k fine, my heart still beating fast till now.
still i was like............ what happen jz now?
no comment for the above date. cz i dun dare to look at him~~~~ wahahahhahaha!!!
Funniest thing i found in myself. 原来 im so much shy than i thought, and im so much 会装镇定 than i expected... fine la. Im a little bit dislike this kind of me. >.<
Late d. Good night. later 7.30am work again. huh~~~ T_T
Tuesday, 7 July 2015
First time 1-10pm shift
ok. so today is my first time ever working for the shift from 1-10pm. since now is Month of Ramadhan, basically the patients will started to reduce around 6.30pm, haha. I believe it will be another scene if it isnt bulan puasa.
So i received a TDM form around 5.50pm, for vancomycin therapeutic monitoring. I didnt check for the dose, so i didnt realize that it wasnt written.
after query was made, vancomycin given was 1.5g BD. FYI, sampling for vanco can only be done for pre-4th dose. which means, before the 4th dose of vanco, the SN have to take pt blood sample (abt half an hour before the next dose). As in today's case, the person incharge took the blood sample before the 3rd dose, which isnt correct, so that sample was rejected for the reason mentioned.
One more interest thing. That I jz found out that tab alendronate (fosamax) have to be taken 1 and half hour b4 food (preferably b4 b'fast), and the pt are required to not lie down for at least 30 min and until their 1st food of the day. This medication is given once per WEEK oh~
P/s.. i must rmbr to tell pt that tab MMT hv to be chewed ah~!!!! (2 tab tds, b4 ponstan or when gastric)
So i received a TDM form around 5.50pm, for vancomycin therapeutic monitoring. I didnt check for the dose, so i didnt realize that it wasnt written.
after query was made, vancomycin given was 1.5g BD. FYI, sampling for vanco can only be done for pre-4th dose. which means, before the 4th dose of vanco, the SN have to take pt blood sample (abt half an hour before the next dose). As in today's case, the person incharge took the blood sample before the 3rd dose, which isnt correct, so that sample was rejected for the reason mentioned.
One more interest thing. That I jz found out that tab alendronate (fosamax) have to be taken 1 and half hour b4 food (preferably b4 b'fast), and the pt are required to not lie down for at least 30 min and until their 1st food of the day. This medication is given once per WEEK oh~
P/s.. i must rmbr to tell pt that tab MMT hv to be chewed ah~!!!! (2 tab tds, b4 ponstan or when gastric)
Sunday, 5 July 2015
爸妈， 我爱你
终于给我等到这一天了！
人生第一次，用自己的薪水， 请了我的爸妈一餐！
以后， 就由我来承担咯~ 终于可以光明正大的掏钱付了哇哈哈哈~
养育的恩，永远都还不完。
记得不要被我太感动~
T__T
希望， 下一次， 我能带你们去国外旅行啦~！爸，你还没坐过飞机的哦~ 再等一等
啊，还有在我一路走来都给予帮助的各位，我也不会忘记你对我的好的！
谢谢各位！
人生第一次，用自己的薪水， 请了我的爸妈一餐！
以后， 就由我来承担咯~ 终于可以光明正大的掏钱付了哇哈哈哈~
养育的恩，永远都还不完。
记得不要被我太感动~
T__T
希望， 下一次， 我能带你们去国外旅行啦~！爸，你还没坐过飞机的哦~ 再等一等
啊，还有在我一路走来都给予帮助的各位，我也不会忘记你对我的好的！
谢谢各位！
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