好久好久没有写心情啦~ 今天回来了! 这些日子，我混什么去了呢?
嗯… 说好的槟城之旅, 本来怀着开心期待的心情却在最终放了自己飞机。。真的很沮丧。。朋友们都在期待我的打架光临，却因为自己的一些私事不了了之。。对于没能履行承诺，还真是抱歉。。im so sorry for unable to make my promise of going to penang which i hv looking forward for so so many years after i left penang matriculation. When can i go again? Wish it will be in near coming weeks! Pray for it!
去不了旅行，但我还是有事要帮忙。。怎么说呢? 就现在正在照顾着一位亲戚。。该说什么好呢？我该感谢因为他的出事，我学到了怎样 break ampoules and gv injections via iv line? Taking care of patient isn't simple thing i realized. But i never expect that in one day that patient could be my relative. I/o chart, vital monitoring n recording all these i hv been doing since 10+ days ago.. I was so passionate abt the responsibility that all my relatives rellies on me but few days back i suddenly felt that, if the patient not actually care the minor things which we are so afraid of (infection), should i continue to take care of him? Whats the point im here taking care of u if u r the one supposedly hv the responsibility? Its better for me to go bc n take care of my parents..
Well, And luckily, u r recovering well. Guess I can go bc home very soon. May be I sounds irresponsible but all the scenarios I saw here wasn't right. Yes I'm now free and I actually very willing to take care of u but emm.. Since u think u r ok now, then its time for me to go bc.. Hah.
啊， 还有件事, 不明白很久了。。想说如果不去理会,不去回复某些事某些人, 事情不是会渐渐被淡忘吗? 我就是不明白为什么事情不是这样发展?
朋友, 本来我们真的可以当朋友的, 就只是普通朋友。。 可是当我已经表明立场，你却不能接受，那我真的只有不把你当朋友了。我不玩暧昧, 也不喜欢给别人觉得自己有机会的那种幻想。我认为那样是在浪费你的时间。是我的问题, 我真的认为我们不可能。想说过这么久了，不联络你, 你是不是也该明白了放下了。可是为什么你还是这样呢? 难道要我一直做这种残忍的事吗? 你不觉得我其实很不想这样做呢? 我会担心你的朋友会怎么想我? 会认为为什么我是这样的一个人。。到底有谁会这么做? 还是你其实喜欢的是扮演悲情专一的角色？让周围的人安慰你? 明明我们有那么久没有任何交集了，为什么你还会喜欢我我真不明白。。我真的没有你想像中那么美好。放过你自己，重新好好的找个喜欢的人吧。或许在很久的将来，我们还有机会还有缘分，当个朋友。
