So here goes my 3 weeks attachment in CDR, what a hectic and rush but happy period i had. Learned a lot from my boss, in terms of soft skills he had shown, taught me that whenever there is a problem, solve it, rather than wasting time blaming on others fault. Seriously if I was in such tension and stress situation i would have blown away by angryness. Yes, all this while I have been behaved like such, i knew i was wrong but i hardly control myself, up until this cdr boss showed me that solving problems in gentle ways really helps others feel better A LOT! Thank you boss!
Well, i mentioned that it was a very hectic period i had during this 3 weeks, as im rushing to fulfill my logbook requirement - 20 counsellings and 20 cases to be clerked. Well well... Im quite disappointed to myself as i didnt performed well, i was busy with my indian dance practice for the 1st 2 weeks. Seriously i was so much tired after the practice till i have no more energy to read what i have clerk and understand what happen to the pt i clerked. Bcz of the dance performance, i missed my friend's and buddy's convo. huh~~ sad. But yeah, it was an amazing experience as i have been looking for chance to dance in the traditional indian costumes.. Thou my dance was so .... speechless, yet im happy and proud of myself hahah.
Why i am awake in this hour? it is 2.40am right now. okay, see. im talking to myself~~~ huh.. i having a&e shift today thats why i writing all these stuffs as i am really sleepy today~ please! faster turns to 7.30am~!
Have a sweet dream world.
Thursday, 12 November 2015
Monday, 9 November 2015
谢啦！
I knew what i wrote here will somehow be seen by someone. But i will never know that my blog will be seen and read by someone, and how dare you, how could you, tell me u r reading about it. This is my SECRET GARDEN man~ plz dont let me know la. u sendiri tahu diam diam sudah cukup ok.. ishhhh..
k. so this is my first time writing this without my own will. anyway, since that what u did somehow touched me a little, k~~~~
好吧，我曾经是校园霸凌的受害者~ 从来没有想过这种事会发生在自己身上。虽然是一些小事，可是就是被欺负了。从中一到中三。。直到，中四换了班，又或许大家都长大了，才摆脱恶梦。你不知道吧，我真的有因为这样哭了。 可是我很骄傲， 因为我都没有跟家人说， 我都自己走过来了， 虽然很委屈。 我当时会想， 为什么没有王子救我的。。。哈哈哈哈。。 im jz kidding
都是很久以前的事了。当时做过什么真的不太记得， 或许潜意识不想回忆那段， 又或者我老了？ 有天，有个很久没联络的朋友（？）哈哈， 让我知道曾经自己送出过一个礼物！ 天， 我完全没印象， 我没有那么老吧？ 不过感恩， 原来有人把我的心意看得那么重。 那只是卡片， 但是你收藏的那么久，让我有感动到。（奇怪，我被自己送出去的礼物感动。）好笑
就这样，没有啦。写这篇，是谢你的。你知道的
k. so this is my first time writing this without my own will. anyway, since that what u did somehow touched me a little, k~~~~
好吧，我曾经是校园霸凌的受害者~ 从来没有想过这种事会发生在自己身上。虽然是一些小事，可是就是被欺负了。从中一到中三。。直到，中四换了班，又或许大家都长大了，才摆脱恶梦。你不知道吧，我真的有因为这样哭了。 可是我很骄傲， 因为我都没有跟家人说， 我都自己走过来了， 虽然很委屈。 我当时会想， 为什么没有王子救我的。。。哈哈哈哈。。 im jz kidding
都是很久以前的事了。当时做过什么真的不太记得， 或许潜意识不想回忆那段， 又或者我老了？ 有天，有个很久没联络的朋友（？）哈哈， 让我知道曾经自己送出过一个礼物！ 天， 我完全没印象， 我没有那么老吧？ 不过感恩， 原来有人把我的心意看得那么重。 那只是卡片， 但是你收藏的那么久，让我有感动到。（奇怪，我被自己送出去的礼物感动。）好笑
就这样，没有啦。写这篇，是谢你的。你知道的
Sunday, 4 October 2015
也许，我错了
不知道你会不会发现， 可是真的抱歉， 我好像又伤到你了。
我真的没有勇气面对你。在我知道你所做的事情。
如果你骂我，我可能会难过生气， 可是总是比现在这样，让我那么愧疚来的更让我舒服。
对不起， 我也只能这样跟你说。
我过不了心理那一关。
我应该会变成老姑婆 >.<
ps: 新车今天到手，希望一切顺利平安。
我真的没有勇气面对你。在我知道你所做的事情。
如果你骂我，我可能会难过生气， 可是总是比现在这样，让我那么愧疚来的更让我舒服。
对不起， 我也只能这样跟你说。
我过不了心理那一关。
我应该会变成老姑婆 >.<
ps: 新车今天到手，希望一切顺利平安。
Wednesday, 26 August 2015
只有难过的时候才想到这
Not a good day today. get stressed since yesterday after listening story shared by my new boss. Clinical attachment isnt an easy one but i just realized how important for me to absorp as much as possible b4 enter to ward. Clinical pharmacists are all very smart for me, but now im very scared of entering there.
The root would definitely bcz i didnt prepare well, doesnt equip myself with all neccesities. Im so lazy that i live my life without any target.
im so much emo today. Something went wrong with me. I screwed things up, didnt do as what ordered and again, I should have shut my mouth.
Conclusion-> 1. got to be more hardworking and 2. think b4 speak.
Lastly, I should stop talking bad abt someone as one day i guarantee that the bad thing sure will be done by me myself. again, i should hv shut my mouth.
The root would definitely bcz i didnt prepare well, doesnt equip myself with all neccesities. Im so lazy that i live my life without any target.
im so much emo today. Something went wrong with me. I screwed things up, didnt do as what ordered and again, I should have shut my mouth.
Conclusion-> 1. got to be more hardworking and 2. think b4 speak.
Lastly, I should stop talking bad abt someone as one day i guarantee that the bad thing sure will be done by me myself. again, i should hv shut my mouth.
Sunday, 19 July 2015
圈子, 世界
双鱼的劣根性: 从小就幻想以后会出现王子, 然后一见钟情,然后就成了幸福的公主。
可是我忘了, 我从来都不是特别的人, 不会有所谓的一见钟情发生。更不用说什么王子与公主。
我也忽略了, 不是公主, 怎么遇到王子?
我就是个路人, 最普通的,没什么特别
圈子不同, 活着的世界也不一样。就好像, 我们只能看着明星,却无法了解。
我的世界很小,你的一切都在发光
我觉得, 有一个直觉告诉我, 我会一直一个人。
我怕跟人相处, 这是我最大的问题。这种阴影不知道要缠到多久。。
一个人的这种小生活很自在却也很孤单,
累了饿了病了只可以自己来
我不喜欢可是我必须坚强
很矛盾。 不想一个人却又怕面对相处的不安全感。
这情绪应该还会反常几天。
我想昨晚的事情真的影响到了我。
原来, 我也不小了
晚安
可是我忘了, 我从来都不是特别的人, 不会有所谓的一见钟情发生。更不用说什么王子与公主。
我也忽略了, 不是公主, 怎么遇到王子?
我就是个路人, 最普通的,没什么特别
圈子不同, 活着的世界也不一样。就好像, 我们只能看着明星,却无法了解。
我的世界很小,你的一切都在发光
我觉得, 有一个直觉告诉我, 我会一直一个人。
我怕跟人相处, 这是我最大的问题。这种阴影不知道要缠到多久。。
一个人的这种小生活很自在却也很孤单,
累了饿了病了只可以自己来
我不喜欢可是我必须坚强
很矛盾。 不想一个人却又怕面对相处的不安全感。
这情绪应该还会反常几天。
我想昨晚的事情真的影响到了我。
原来, 我也不小了
晚安
Saturday, 18 July 2015
18/7/2015 What a day
Is raya festive now. But there were still lots of patients when i reached my pharmacy emergency department. Shocked! Why they didnt celebrate their day? they must be very speechless for having themselves sick this moment.
Anyway it was a good start as my pretty pharmacist gave me her nasi bungkus she unable to have it due to busyness.. Appreciate!
But this happiness didnt last long as finally 该来的都会来。I have to go to the main pharmacy to get some medicines alone and explore all that things in darkness.. all my organs especially my hearing got so sensitive that moment.. the only thing i can do was to comfort myself to not think too much... >.<
Do u know whats the feeling when u r alone in a room and the TDM machine beep so loud?! Horrible! Helpless! and God no one answer my call and msg.. =(
Luckily there were getting less patients as i ran the procedure and my pharmacist also understood my situation. Jz that the whole night we didnt chat much, which i found it quite 冷场。 hah! may be she is just too cool~ nvr mind, she is still nice to me~ haha
but my mood was being affected as i received msg from someone. i admitted that i was being rude to that person, and i realised what i was done on this person, but that i cant control my angry that moment. If i was given another choice back to that time, i think i will still do the same thing again. Yes i feel sorry for releasing my angry only on this fellow, but....... sorry i cant control myself. i wont tell my frens abt this, but for sure your msg will always in my mind n heart. 'look at the holes u have made in the fence, they will never be the same again.' I believe my rudeness also ran deep into your mind. ur msg, will nvr be erased.
As i woke up after slept for 8 hrs, in very blurred mind, i got msg from my favourite pretty pretty pharmacist asking me to go out! 重点来咯~ she wana intro her bro............................
so i was like.......................
and the whole session i was like............................
k fine, my heart still beating fast till now.
still i was like............ what happen jz now?
no comment for the above date. cz i dun dare to look at him~~~~ wahahahhahaha!!!
Funniest thing i found in myself. 原来 im so much shy than i thought, and im so much 会装镇定 than i expected... fine la. Im a little bit dislike this kind of me. >.<
Late d. Good night. later 7.30am work again. huh~~~ T_T
Anyway it was a good start as my pretty pharmacist gave me her nasi bungkus she unable to have it due to busyness.. Appreciate!
But this happiness didnt last long as finally 该来的都会来。I have to go to the main pharmacy to get some medicines alone and explore all that things in darkness.. all my organs especially my hearing got so sensitive that moment.. the only thing i can do was to comfort myself to not think too much... >.<
Do u know whats the feeling when u r alone in a room and the TDM machine beep so loud?! Horrible! Helpless! and God no one answer my call and msg.. =(
Luckily there were getting less patients as i ran the procedure and my pharmacist also understood my situation. Jz that the whole night we didnt chat much, which i found it quite 冷场。 hah! may be she is just too cool~ nvr mind, she is still nice to me~ haha
but my mood was being affected as i received msg from someone. i admitted that i was being rude to that person, and i realised what i was done on this person, but that i cant control my angry that moment. If i was given another choice back to that time, i think i will still do the same thing again. Yes i feel sorry for releasing my angry only on this fellow, but....... sorry i cant control myself. i wont tell my frens abt this, but for sure your msg will always in my mind n heart. 'look at the holes u have made in the fence, they will never be the same again.' I believe my rudeness also ran deep into your mind. ur msg, will nvr be erased.
As i woke up after slept for 8 hrs, in very blurred mind, i got msg from my favourite pretty pretty pharmacist asking me to go out! 重点来咯~ she wana intro her bro............................
so i was like.......................
and the whole session i was like............................
k fine, my heart still beating fast till now.
still i was like............ what happen jz now?
no comment for the above date. cz i dun dare to look at him~~~~ wahahahhahaha!!!
Funniest thing i found in myself. 原来 im so much shy than i thought, and im so much 会装镇定 than i expected... fine la. Im a little bit dislike this kind of me. >.<
Late d. Good night. later 7.30am work again. huh~~~ T_T
Tuesday, 7 July 2015
First time 1-10pm shift
ok. so today is my first time ever working for the shift from 1-10pm. since now is Month of Ramadhan, basically the patients will started to reduce around 6.30pm, haha. I believe it will be another scene if it isnt bulan puasa.
So i received a TDM form around 5.50pm, for vancomycin therapeutic monitoring. I didnt check for the dose, so i didnt realize that it wasnt written.
after query was made, vancomycin given was 1.5g BD. FYI, sampling for vanco can only be done for pre-4th dose. which means, before the 4th dose of vanco, the SN have to take pt blood sample (abt half an hour before the next dose). As in today's case, the person incharge took the blood sample before the 3rd dose, which isnt correct, so that sample was rejected for the reason mentioned.
One more interest thing. That I jz found out that tab alendronate (fosamax) have to be taken 1 and half hour b4 food (preferably b4 b'fast), and the pt are required to not lie down for at least 30 min and until their 1st food of the day. This medication is given once per WEEK oh~
P/s.. i must rmbr to tell pt that tab MMT hv to be chewed ah~!!!! (2 tab tds, b4 ponstan or when gastric)
So i received a TDM form around 5.50pm, for vancomycin therapeutic monitoring. I didnt check for the dose, so i didnt realize that it wasnt written.
after query was made, vancomycin given was 1.5g BD. FYI, sampling for vanco can only be done for pre-4th dose. which means, before the 4th dose of vanco, the SN have to take pt blood sample (abt half an hour before the next dose). As in today's case, the person incharge took the blood sample before the 3rd dose, which isnt correct, so that sample was rejected for the reason mentioned.
One more interest thing. That I jz found out that tab alendronate (fosamax) have to be taken 1 and half hour b4 food (preferably b4 b'fast), and the pt are required to not lie down for at least 30 min and until their 1st food of the day. This medication is given once per WEEK oh~
P/s.. i must rmbr to tell pt that tab MMT hv to be chewed ah~!!!! (2 tab tds, b4 ponstan or when gastric)
Sunday, 5 July 2015
爸妈， 我爱你
终于给我等到这一天了！
人生第一次，用自己的薪水， 请了我的爸妈一餐！
以后， 就由我来承担咯~ 终于可以光明正大的掏钱付了哇哈哈哈~
养育的恩，永远都还不完。
记得不要被我太感动~
T__T
希望， 下一次， 我能带你们去国外旅行啦~！爸，你还没坐过飞机的哦~ 再等一等
啊，还有在我一路走来都给予帮助的各位，我也不会忘记你对我的好的！
谢谢各位！
人生第一次，用自己的薪水， 请了我的爸妈一餐！
以后， 就由我来承担咯~ 终于可以光明正大的掏钱付了哇哈哈哈~
养育的恩，永远都还不完。
记得不要被我太感动~
T__T
希望， 下一次， 我能带你们去国外旅行啦~！爸，你还没坐过飞机的哦~ 再等一等
啊，还有在我一路走来都给予帮助的各位，我也不会忘记你对我的好的！
谢谢各位！
Thursday, 5 March 2015
Sunday, 15 February 2015
2月15
今天终于回来这里啦! 其实每天都有很多话可是就是懒惰上来写。我是真的超级懒的!
恩,13/2 那天放工得早, (啊我其实打着临时工) 又突然被放鸽子, 超低落的。回到房没事干只好重看电脑的电影。啊新年要到了就想说不如看贺岁片天天好天。看完后觉得哭不过瘾啊!! (我有很严重的被虐倾向!)
一心想哭就上网查看-2014经典现代虐文。哈哈! 找了很久,终于找到了一本! --《沥川往事》
故事围绕着一对男女的爱情, 男主少了条腿, 又患了绝症, 为了让女主早点忘了他,毅然离开,消失。可女主好坚持她的爱情啊。经过好多风雨, 掉了我好多的泪,在我以为男主真的要死了, 故事以悲剧收场了, 我以悲愤的心情因第一次接触这种残忍的故事而难过时!!!! 幸好! 没事! 怎么没事的? 要知道就去看吧~ 真的超虐心! 我以后一定重读! 作者真的很有功力! 故事虽然以爱情为主轴, 可是内容很丰富, 有好多英文对白, 医学用语, 法文,德文,建筑设计,让我严重怀疑作者就是女主本人!! 看完后真希望我的男主也快点找对通往我的路啊~~
14/2- 情人节。没情人? 哈! 我有bestie! 真的感谢千里迢迢赶来的你啊♡ 不然我真的会郁闷死! 要知道我真不想一个人过啊~ 从你跟我肯定的那瞬间你知道我有多激动吗? 哈哈! 谢啦朋友~ 希望我们明年都找到自己的另一伴啦哈哈哈。
那今天就这样。希望可以常常上这里,不然真的太懒惰了! 第二就希望自己和认识的每个人过的幸福快乐。
第三嘛。。默默许愿: 未来的男主, 我希望你是浪漫的大胆的哈哈哈我疯了
恩,13/2 那天放工得早, (啊我其实打着临时工) 又突然被放鸽子, 超低落的。回到房没事干只好重看电脑的电影。啊新年要到了就想说不如看贺岁片天天好天。看完后觉得哭不过瘾啊!! (我有很严重的被虐倾向!)
一心想哭就上网查看-2014经典现代虐文。哈哈! 找了很久,终于找到了一本! --《沥川往事》
故事围绕着一对男女的爱情, 男主少了条腿, 又患了绝症, 为了让女主早点忘了他,毅然离开,消失。可女主好坚持她的爱情啊。经过好多风雨, 掉了我好多的泪,在我以为男主真的要死了, 故事以悲剧收场了, 我以悲愤的心情因第一次接触这种残忍的故事而难过时!!!! 幸好! 没事! 怎么没事的? 要知道就去看吧~ 真的超虐心! 我以后一定重读! 作者真的很有功力! 故事虽然以爱情为主轴, 可是内容很丰富, 有好多英文对白, 医学用语, 法文,德文,建筑设计,让我严重怀疑作者就是女主本人!! 看完后真希望我的男主也快点找对通往我的路啊~~
14/2- 情人节。没情人? 哈! 我有bestie! 真的感谢千里迢迢赶来的你啊♡ 不然我真的会郁闷死! 要知道我真不想一个人过啊~ 从你跟我肯定的那瞬间你知道我有多激动吗? 哈哈! 谢啦朋友~ 希望我们明年都找到自己的另一伴啦哈哈哈。
那今天就这样。希望可以常常上这里,不然真的太懒惰了! 第二就希望自己和认识的每个人过的幸福快乐。
第三嘛。。默默许愿: 未来的男主, 我希望你是浪漫的大胆的哈哈哈我疯了
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