这么久了, 我幹什么去了?

好久好久没有写心情啦~ 今天回来了! 这些日子，我混什么去了呢?
嗯… 说好的槟城之旅, 本来怀着开心期待的心情却在最终放了自己飞机。。真的很沮丧。。朋友们都在期待我的打架光临，却因为自己的一些私事不了了之。。对于没能履行承诺，还真是抱歉。。im so sorry for unable to make my promise of going to penang which i hv looking forward for so so many years after i left penang matriculation. When can i go again? Wish it will be in near coming weeks! Pray for it!

去不了旅行，但我还是有事要帮忙。。怎么说呢? 就现在正在照顾着一位亲戚。。该说什么好呢？我该感谢因为他的出事，我学到了怎样 break ampoules and gv injections via iv line? Taking care of patient isn't simple thing i realized. But i never expect that in one day that patient could be my relative. I/o chart, vital monitoring n recording all these i hv been doing since 10+ days ago.. I was so passionate abt the responsibility that all my relatives rellies on me but few days back i suddenly felt that, if the patient not actually care the minor things which we are so afraid of (infection), should i continue to take care of him? Whats the point im here taking care of u if u r the one supposedly hv the responsibility? Its better for me to go bc n take care of my parents..

Well, And luckily, u r recovering well. Guess I can go bc home very soon. May be I sounds irresponsible but all the scenarios I saw here wasn't right. Yes I'm now free and I actually very willing to take care of u but emm.. Since u think u r ok now, then its time for me to go bc.. Hah.

啊， 还有件事, 不明白很久了。。想说如果不去理会,不去回复某些事某些人,  事情不是会渐渐被淡忘吗? 我就是不明白为什么事情不是这样发展?
朋友, 本来我们真的可以当朋友的, 就只是普通朋友。。 可是当我已经表明立场，你却不能接受，那我真的只有不把你当朋友了。我不玩暧昧, 也不喜欢给别人觉得自己有机会的那种幻想。我认为那样是在浪费你的时间。是我的问题, 我真的认为我们不可能。想说过这么久了，不联络你, 你是不是也该明白了放下了。可是为什么你还是这样呢? 难道要我一直做这种残忍的事吗? 你不觉得我其实很不想这样做呢? 我会担心你的朋友会怎么想我? 会认为为什么我是这样的一个人。。到底有谁会这么做? 还是你其实喜欢的是扮演悲情专一的角色？让周围的人安慰你? 明明我们有那么久没有任何交集了，为什么你还会喜欢我我真不明白。。我真的没有你想像中那么美好。放过你自己，重新好好的找个喜欢的人吧。或许在很久的将来，我们还有机会还有缘分，当个朋友。

这让人怦然心动的季节

1- 认识的朋友结婚了。婚宴在户外进行。看了照片,好美, 好喜欢。突然, 好想找个伴。。
2- 学妹谈恋爱了, 对象竟然是学弟~ 看着俩人亲密的照片, 心动了。。突然, 又想找个伴。。
3- 双鱼的我, 天生爱幻想浪漫。看的小说永远是爱的主题。平淡的爱情, 也许更深入心。突然,想体验, 被爱的感觉。。

啊。。 这真是太虐心的时刻。。不行这样啊!!! 请控制这些情不自禁的怦怦跳!

等

天气很冷, 心也寒。

在等一个拥抱, 等一个温暖, 等一个希望, 等一个目标。

哎~ 真被动

 我要去旅行!!!

Part time life start!

• Owh.. after 1 month doing nothing at home, except those routine house chore n sleep + eat, Im finally started my part time life!

Day 1 working.. rush to work v my super old friend--> motor~ haha. It reminded me of those days when I was still a form 4 & 5 girl. Driving alone wasn't good as im kinda think too much perhaps. . Worried too much.. as always I do. Hm. But guess I can get used to it. Wish me all the best!

Well. Hows my day? Hmm.. not really tired but the legs are... masammm woi.. haha.. it has been some time I left my previous part time. Bt I did some mistakes. Sad n disappointed.  Oh. Some more I suddenly miss my first part time job at malacca. Such a wonderful teammates I ever had. Miss them so much~♡ I din chat much today bcz they are all v serious faces. Hope this can change in future! 

Fighting!  Money money I need u~ haha! 

Hypertension!

These few days I have been thinking whether im in the stage of pre-hypertension..

I had my last BP check-up about past 3 weeks (during my clinical simulation!) and the reading was around 120+/90+ mmHg. I didn't take it serious anyway on the spot. 

Then, for these few days as i was reading my notes for exam I was shocked by my sudden thought that I might be having pre-hypertension! Then i kept recalling my past BP reading and a complete shock to me is that : omg! my BP has been like that for past few months!

This is really frightening. I kept on asking my bro to be aware of those family inherited chronic diseases but me myself ended up like this. what a speechless~

Well, Im not fed up even there is a little sadness, emo-ness, uneasy and worry crawling over my minds, soul and fragile heart.. I think i still can fix it up with exercise and diet control. Well, I guess my mom will be shocked if i told her this! Then she will have no other choices but to put less salt while cooking~ hah!

See man, you should be aware that this might happen to you as well! Hypertension is trying its best to be the top killer in the nation!

My Name Is Khan -- what I've learned from this movie

'Muslims in America.'

Well, Im still having my exam week and i have 2 more papers to go. I should have study rather than doing other things. But here I am. Finishing this movie after searching n loading it which it took me 18 hours.

i was not intended to watch this movie from the start. I jz wana have something that has a core, something other than simply love, action, hero, techno or what-so-ever..

so i started with searching '哪些电影有反思?' which means what are the movies that put us on reflection/review/think something back. Well, there goes the power of Google, gave me lists of recommendations which i ended up picking up a movie called ' My name is Khan' (Khan --- not Kan, is from the epiglottis, lol).

Okay, it deserves my very high expectation. I cried n cried n cried, over n over again while watching. (Really, really damn good for letting myself cried so hard!) It really brought up something that I have been so ignorance so far.

Have you ever think of the life of Muslims? I guess i know a little coz im living in this lovely country, Malaysia . They are actually, for me, show no difference except that their religion.

But when there comes the 911 incidence, people changed their views upon Muslims.

So, have u ever think of their lives living in America? No, i never.
But the characters in the movie felt a lot, ended up a journey going for The US President, to told him : 'Im Khan, and Im not a terrorist.'.

There are only two different people exist, either good, or bad. Yes. People are not defined as good or bad, based on their religion, neither their races. It reminds me that people are born to be good.  It is We, ourselves, who then choose to be one of them, regardless of what we believe, what our skin colours are.

We all are once GOOD. And people shouldn't be judged based on religion. They all, i believe, that come in a correct, and good and positive way, leading people to have faith in their lives, and correcting their people from going bad and teaching their people how to be better.

We are the SAME actually, regardless of what we believe, what our skin colours are.

Sadly, some people, regardless of their education background, may not recognise this.



 

奉子*成婚

多么沉重的事情。

当你发现身边的朋友亲友， 越来越多因为有了Baby, 就办了人生大事，我真不知道该给些什么反应。。你会想说： 结婚是快乐的事呀！当然要开心呐！ 可当你知道， 她们都只不过是 20 出头 的小女孩后， 我的心有多纠结，有多担心。。

很多回忆在倒带，很多心里话，又有很多感触。。

担心， 当然是因为在乎她们的人生。。想一想， 20 岁的花样年华， 就这样栽进了婚姻，家庭的责任还有束缚里，是多么不值啊~！

她们本该可以到外面的世界闯荡，享受单身的自由，得到来自身边每一个关心自己， 疼爱自己的照顾。

她们本来有着属于自己的梦想， 规划， 还有自己的生活中心， 生活圈子。。

她们本来还能多陪伴和孝顺父母多几年， 毕竟父母含辛茹苦养大我们， 不就是为了看到他们的骨肉，成龙，成凤吗！她们本该可以过得更好！更让父母少担心点的！


可是，男人啊，你们为什么这个时候就把她们拉出去了呢？？？
女人啊~ 为什么你们看不到这些呢？？？

你们可知道，你们将要面对的挑战？？

男人，你要每天更卖力的工作！赚钱！养家！！

女人，你每天都要在照顾孩子， 打理家庭的日子里渡过。。

然后在某天的聚会上，你看着身边的朋友过得比你快乐自由时，看着合照里还是那么美丽动人的好友时。。能怨他吗 ？还能悔吗？ 你知不知道，你男人跟你失去的一样多！

不是我想的太过偏激， 只是有些事情，要认真看待。必要的时候，往最坏的方向打算，这样才会多些心理准备。

好吧， 结婚当然还是件喜事！ 终于， 你找到了人生的靠岸，终于你不在孤单奋战，终于你有了更清晰明确的目标~
古话说： 先成家后立业。恭喜你，你已经不需再为身边的蜜蜂啊~苍蝇啊~ 苦恼了。。
人生的低潮时，你还有个伴，在你身边陪着你 支持你，帮助你 照顾你！多难得！！
你的父母也不用担心说：儿阿，为什么还没有人要？
他们终于在有生之年看到他们的小孙子！含饴弄孙的生活多遐意！

所以，到最后的最后， 我只能由衷地送上深深的祝福：

你们一定要幸福！！！

舌尖上的中国-观后感

首先，当然是想强力介绍各位这曾红遍中国一时的节目啦~
（然后~~想说此篇个人觉得写得很中文，有点儿正式。没办法，看完后不知不觉就自动变了调儿！哈！）

其实很早以前就看了这火红的美食记录片， 是的，我认为它是美食记录片。当时看的目的就是冲着它能让中国人民，尤其是年轻一辈为之感叹且能够引发广大深思的影响力。但是，当时或许对它有着别样的期望， 看了几集之后就不看了， 也就一直把它搁在电脑存档里。

这几天， 网速不是普通的龟速。没办法， 重新挖出了这节目。Surprisingly!! 重新认识这节目不简单的地方！

单是从它搜集了中国各大城市，到小村庄的不同美食，巨大的工程，已经让我佩服不已。

再细细品尝它的旁白， 更是让我感叹着这记录片的诚意，还有整个幕后班底的强大且深厚的文化背景和中文的博大。

从叙述来自不同地区的美食，到美食背后的历史文化，到美食的来源（捕抓，耕种，采集），再介绍到美食的准备功夫，它们的烹调用具和制作，还有各种你从未真正用心体会到的烹煮手法，再谈到默默准备这些美食的人们的背景，努力，单纯，用心，还有创造力。。

好吧，真的是很精彩的一部美食记录片，　让我感悟很多。也值得推荐！

真的，下次吃饭前要好好感恩很多小小人物的努力，也要吃得一滴，一粒也不留，才会觉得对得起这些默默付出人们。

其实中国的节目有些真的很值得看，除了看到更大的世界外，当然还能品尝中文的美妙，提升+增加语言词汇！

ｐ／ｓ：写这篇让我对自己也ｓｕｒｐｒｉｓｅ！　原来俺的中文词汇不赖嘛！

Some General Knowledge on health

Do you know that~~

1.  even herbal is natural, but not all natural thing are safe!

2. Herbal supplements may have some effects on the medication you are taking! (Drug-Herbal interaction)

3. When your are having Diarrhea

•  Never drink lactose milk (or any dairy products)!
• they can exacerbate the diarrhea~ 

 4. Repeated use of laxatives can also cause constipation~

5. A baby can Blink their eyes at 16th week!!!

Made in the USA by me!

jz a try~ cz i cannot & will never be able to sing it out loud~~!
here's the song!

我想要的

其实，我想有个人懂我。一个我想让他知道我想法的人，虽然现在还没遇到，但我觉得，总有那么一天吧？郭晶晶说，女生，要找好对象，首先就让自己变成钻石！好吧，我还差得很远~ 所以还需要慢慢等了。

对了，其实想说，我在乎我们能当上朋友的缘分。可是不知道什么时候开始，不知道什么事情发生了， 你对我渐渐疏离。印象中，我认为自己可能做过一件你不满意的事，就一件。可你知道吗？你有没有想过我的感受呢？突然的转变，我到现在还适应不来。我尊重你，但可以告诉我，我做错什么需要这么受罪吗？内心狂风暴雨，可是却开不了口问你。我想，这缘分如果你不珍惜，我做再多也没用，不是吗？

还有两个月就毕业了。很不舍。药剂朋友们，我们还能在相聚吗？总感觉，身边的朋友少的可怜。也因为少， 也更珍惜在一起的时光。。朋友，你们要好好的，我想要的，就是我们的缘分，不会止于现在。谢谢你们，让我的生命变得不那么孤燥，让我学会很多，还有感动。

还有，最近国家还有世界发生了好多悲剧。希望一切雨过天晴，为世界和平祈祷。
现在或许难过哭了，可是未来还有好远的路要走。各位要坚强啊~ 时间真的能让一切变淡。。切肤之痛！

啊，差点忘了，给在外国的你， 给在生病 的你，给要去实习的你，谢谢你曾在我脆弱的时候，拉我一把。虽然我们友情或许没有那么深，可想告诉你，我会一直珍惜这份友情。没有你，我或许需要更久的时间走出来。 没有你，我还不知道，我还有朋友。。 总之，谢啦！